tGB// Sojir's Heart Chart

Relationships//

Neutral
Friend
Good friend
Close friend
Best friend
Family
Crush
Love
Unsure
Dislike/Irritation
Despise/Hate

Cenek
( | ) (Soulbound) He has what, 8 lives left.  I'm concerned for him. But I love him, too.  He's one of the only friends I have left from when I joined Shadow-tribe, and I'm so glad he is. We've been through it all, hell, I mean we fought caimen together, moved Shadow-tribe, and back in the day, fought in the second great war.  He listens to me and I listen to him. He does shit for me and I do shit for him. We've been through so much and I love him, and he's got so much left in him but so little at the same time. I can't help but be nervous for him, as he seems to enjoy letting his lives slide by rather quickly... I don't think I could go on without him so he'd better not leave any time soon. Going back to one heartbeat pounding in my ears would be too peculiar.


Astrarius
( | ) Astrarius will always be one of my best friends right up there with Kena and Orinia and Jensen. He helps me with training all the time, hunting and fighting alike even if he is the most clumsy bat at hunting I've ever seen. He was one of the first cats I met, and Ast's like the big brother I never had. Love him to death, would do anything for him.

( ) Astrarius... He's... He's dead. We went in the bogs after Violet ran out in the forest during hide and seek and we got attacked by a caiman... I just... God, Astrarius. I love you. I love you so much. I'm so sorry. Oh, Ast...

( )I miss you... are you proud of me? I wish you were still here, Astrarius, I need your guidance like you always gave...


Kena
( | ) This girl? Dammit, she's probably the best friend- Sorry Orinia and Astrarius- but she understands me so well. It's like we share a brain or something. I love her to bits and pieces and I'm really glad she came to Shadow Tribe instead of one of those lesser Tribes. But just so you all know, if either of us dies, the other is most likely the murderer. 

EDIT 1; Kena, you're still my best friend ever but I'm... So, so sorry. If I could go back in time and do it all again I would. I would've told you everything. I still, to this day, don't know why I never told you about me and Jensen. I guess I just... Never thought of it. I understand you're mad. I understand you probably want to rip my face off. I'm so sorry. I love you. 

EDIT 2; Now that I've had my kits, Kena and I have made up. She was the first one there with me when I was going through it, and the first thing she said to me was that I was fat. Tied the knot again. I'm now comfortable around her again, and I love her face to death. She loves my 2 kittens like they are her own, and I know they have a great aunt to care for them. KENA I LOVE YOU LET'S NEVER FIGHT AGAIN PLEASE. <33

EDIT 3; Oh my gosh Kena I can't believe you're having kittens. Can't wait to be an aunt! They're all beautiful, and thankfully took after their mother instead of that idiot you decided to have them with. Love you, love them. Can't wait to ruin their lives.

( | ) Kena, I love you so much. I miss you just as much as I love you... but I don't know how I feel about you right now. Of course I'm distraught you're gone-- hell, I can hardly sleep anymore-- but I'm pissed that you decided to up and leave... I know it seems selfish, but you left me and I'm not freaking happy about it. Quite frankly I'm angry. But I still love you. I feel like such a wreck back home without you. I pray that you're okay every night, though, and hope you'll come home soon... Please stay safe and I'll see you when you get back... but where the hell are you?


Blaire
( | ) As my apprentice, you promised me you'd be the best guard Shadow-tribe has to offer.  While that'sa hard feat to accomplish, you're doing a damn well job. I know I don't get to train you as often as I want to between my tiredness, duties as deputy, etc., you've kept up well and are doing your own work on your own time.  I think if you can take on sharks (albiet with some assistance) and do pretty okay in a 3v2, you can make do with the rest of the world. I won't have you as my own for much longer, but Sharkbait, you've improved so much from when you were a little Pink-Shadow about to wet yourself because you were stuck in Shadow-tribe. You're going to do great things.


Kakoora
( ) I'm really trying to see what Kena likes in this fuzzball, I really am. He's so... Thickheadded! When I took Vi and Kars to visit daddy after Cenek told us to do something, he just got so angry with me. As long as we got it done, who cares? I just don't see what Kena values in him so much. Ugh. I don't like him. ... Then again she doesn't like Jensen. But Jensen didn't do anything! Kakoora's just so stubborn. -_-

( | ) After the caiman war I realized how impotant you were to me. It took you nearly being dead for me to notice haha. You're cool, I guess. Don't do that again.

( | ) Pretty much the same thoughts on Kena I have on you... I'm pissed at you. You had the nerve to seek me out in the forest to tell me of your desired return and left again. How dare you? When you get back I'm going to personally rip your throat out... but not after a nice little welcome back. I miss you, Kooks. *Sighs* I'll never understand why you had to leave...


Juliet
( ) I don't know much about her, other than she respects me.  Not too long before she joined Shadow-tribe I found her squabbling in a river.  Who am I not to rescue any cat? I dove in and saved her, but when I dragged her out she was unconscious. I took her back to Shadow-tribe, and see her around camp every now and again.


Orinia
( | ) Orinia is absolutely one of my best friends too. We went underground even though I really wasn't supposed to, and she helped teach me about bugs (*Shudders*) and also helped me mine up the gem necklace I sometimes wear around. I love Orinia a lot, and I'm so thankful that the two of us became friends. Orinia's like my big sister!

( ) Orinia's run off. Sighs. I haven't talked to her in a long, long time, but I still consider her one of my closest friends and hope to see her again soon roaming the territories as a Black or Gray-Shadow. Maybe then we'll go mining again.


Drake
( ) I took him and Blaire out to scrimmage against me, Grantaire, and Tule. I like the kid, but every time I look at him I just think of the Pisciz incident, and I bubble up angrily. Though I know it's not his fault, I can't help it. I know he notices it. He notices it from everyone. WIP.


Grantaire
( ) WIP.

Kyer
( ) We hadn't really talked much before, but he, Cenek, and I went up to shatterbone cliffs. Before then I knew him as Cenek's apprentie, that'sall. Kyer turned to admire the sunset and fall off-- who knew he was afraid of heights? He broke some ribs... and let's just say the exercise didn't end well.

( ) He's reached a depressive slump lately, and I'm not sure why.  His eyes never open.  He rarely leaves camp. All he does is mope and do as instructed by either me or Cenek, and then talk to his sister Blaire. I can't help but wonder what happened to poor Kyer between the shatterbone cliffs incident and now that led to this misbehavoir. I'll have to ask him...

EDIT 1; WIP.


Tule
( ) Idk he's just some cat in Shadow-tribe who approached me one day, and we went out while the caimen were slithering around. Quite frankly that was really stupid of me to suggest (now that I think about it) but it was pretty fun, I won't lie. We barely escaped with our lives once one came across us, and he makes fun of me because of how I saved our lives. I am NOT a slug, Tule. >_> We're friends.

( | ) The night Kena left, I couldn't bear to sleep alone. I knew Tule always slept alone in the caves because he rather kept to himself most of the time, so I kind of forced him to move to my nest. It was really strange and awkward the first few nights (partly because Tule was Tule and I am me, and partly because it depressed me to know Kena would never be sharing my nest again and I was just sobbing quietly every night) but he agreed and since then we're like each other's therapists. I don't think I could have a better friend right now while I struggle with the pain that I can't touch: my mind. Thank you for being there when I need you, Tule.

EDIT 1; Without him I might not be here right now. During the raid on Fire-tribe to retreieve Pisciz (then Primus), I was attacked by the Yellow-Fire and nearly poisoned by his toxic gases. Tule saved me by knocking him away and deactivating his powers. Thank you, Tule.


Kegan
( ) Kegan was my first ever mentor. Now that I think about it (really hard, too, because it's been almost four years), we weren't all that close. I was a naive Pink-Shadow and he was a Green-Shadow who only talked to me when I initiated a training session.  I loved him all the same. Still wish he were here.

EDIT 1; I brought him back from the dead on accident. At first I didn't recognize him, but he seemed to recognize me right away. When I finlly did realize who he was, I could hardly contain myself and a wave of childish immaturity came over me. I'm not sure why I was so thrilled, but I was.  I think the sudden positive emotion (considering I haven't been quite myself lately) flooding my brain made my powers malfunction after some time, and he went back into eden after a brief chat.  I got what I wanted though: he is proud of me.

Rey
( ) When I was a Pink-Shadow during the second great war, he almost killed me. Why would I ever like someone who almost killed me?  You know what he did next?? He killed my MENTOR. My mentor!! Who DOES THAT? Like I don't know what kind of stick was shoved up his ass every time he saw me, but God DAMN was he a bastard.

( ) He saved me from a disaturous bee attack and for thank I'm pleased. I could've saved myself, but whatever, he insisted. Still loathe him. >_> During that same chance meeting, he apologized for killing Kegan (<_<) and I GRACIOUSLY told him I would drop my grudge on him for something he did nearly 2 years previous, however he was still not off the hook.  Seemed pretty excited by that. *Laughs* I still hate him.

( ) Only days after Astrarius's death I met him again in the forest. Before this we'd met a couple of times to the point that I almost (ALMOST, ALMOST, ALMOST) considered him... an acquaintance. Then he pulls a shit stunt like this and rips it to pieces. Granted I was a total asshole that day because you know, Astrarius, my best friend, had died a few days before, but I won't lie that I say some choice things to him that I still regret to this day. He gave me these scars on my cheek if that tells you anything; I said too much and it cut him deeper than these scars. *Exhales* I was pissed then that he attacked me and claimed he shouldn't have, but I deserve them. When I see them, they remind me of him.

( - ) I'd like to think that after all this we've been through that I could call him my friend. I was a stupid, incompetent child to 'Rey,' and he treated me rather fairly.  He fought all the time, but I'd like to think we were... friends. Maybe. Probably not to him. *Chuckles lightly* But still, this is a depressing occurance. I heard from Lydia that he died by saving his son, and I commend him on that. I would do the same for Melibourne or Karsynn, or apparently even his own daughter-- my apprentice-- Blaire.  Hell I would do it for any cat.  He would've too. I know-- knew him.  The dumb Pink/Orange-Shadow in me regets not being the one who ended his lives, but I know myself too, and know that I would never have killed him, nor any other cat.  *Smirks* Do I miss you? I'm not so sure. The last thing we did together was fight together during the caiman war. At least it all ended on a good note, but according to our bipolar relationship, a fight is supposed to happen next, okay? Fighting again with you would be my pleasure, Rey. Rest in peace.


Alcina
( ) Formally, the Silver-Earth and I have never met. Neither did the previous Silver-Earth and I.  But I don't like her enough to put her in my log.  To be honest I'm not sure why I don't like her, and didn't like the previous Silver-Earth. Maybe because I'd much rather prefer the Silver-Earth two Slver-Earths ago, Rey. Even though I hated him, I liked him too (somewhere deep down, I know it) and know that I had a friend in Earth-tribe if I ever really needed it. Now he's gone, and in his place passed two strangers.


Lydia
( ) Lyd and I really hit it off as good friends right off the bat, which is pretty strange considering most cats don't like me at first glance. During the caiman war she helped me ward off a caiman and I feel like I can trust her even though she's from Earth-tribe.

EDIT 1; I found her throwing up outside of Earth-tribe territory. When I asked what was wrong, she mentioned their Slver-Earth had died saving his son. What a way to go. I comforted her and we talked to help her get over his death, though it was really hard for the both of us.

EDIT 2; I came by Light-tribe one day to find her there too. Spirits, she had kittens. They're beautiful, all 4 of them. She and an Air-triber I knew from a past skirmish had them, and I pray that the spirits keep them down here for a long, long time. Lydia is so lucky.


Taren
( ) I keep replaying the scene in my head, and there is no legitimate reason to believe why he attacked me first. He rubs me the wrong way and then attacks Tule on our own border because Tule moved his precious Pink-Earth out of the way from potential harm? He acted first, not me, not Tule, so I can hate the Green-Earth 'Taren' all I want. The fight got so out of paw that I had to use my name controlling abilities on him to help out. Earth-tribers are so stupid anyway.  Who tests the Yellow of a tribe on her border when she has a patrol behind her?  Not like I would've attacked first anyway because he didn't push me that far, but he's so stupid. It was very... strange, though. Near the end of the fight when I had him pinned to the ground, I had a flashback to when I wasn't even six moons old and my first mentor was being murdered by the Silver-Earth (a Green-Earth at the time). I was Rey in this instance, Taren was Kegan, and the Pink-Earth was myself. It was almost directly parallel, but with an audience. And I couldn't go on. Not like I would've killed him anyway, but the thought of killing this Green-Earth before his young apprentice... I know that pain. If I were a cat like Vokor, I would have never done it anyway because I empathized with what could have been her disaster. I didn't want her to go through what I had to go through at her age.


Sylvani
( ) She did nothing wrong on that skirmish.  Begging for us to stop, we didn't listen, and ended up getting in a fight with her mentor and some Air-tribers and a Fire-triber who seemed to appear out of thin air.  I didn't look her way more than a couple of times, but near the end of the fight I had her mentor pinned.  I looked at her then. The look of pure, ice-cold terror on her face tore my heart in two. I let them go. The Pink-Earth reminded me of myself just then.

Ross
( ) I used my communication power to meet him. He was the first successful cat I ever got to talk to! Ross is pretty cool; we walked around a little bit and chatted and he told me some stuff about the old wars before my powers ran out. I actually kind of want to talk to him again someday.


Coral
( ) I really like this she-cat. It was storming when we met and she lost her seashell necklace in the lake so I went down to get it with her. When we came back up on shore a tree lodged itself between us and I took shelter in a badger's nest, and she freed me. It was a lot of fun, even if it was a little frightening. Glad to have met her definitely.


Zenobia
( ) We met under bad circumstances the first time.  It was raining and I was on Air-tribe's border whenever it started pouring down hard. I met her during this when we both took shelter in a rabbit hole. The hole caved in on us and we had to find our way out through a bunch of tunnels. It took forever, but when we finally saw the light of day again, it'd stopped raining and we parted ways as acquaintances.

( | ) (Cousin) We always have such chance meetings. After the caiman war (in which she saved me from a caiman by electrocuting it), we met again and were just talking for the hell of it when she mentioned her parents. All the while she talked, my mind's gears spun because all she said sounded awfully familiar. It hit me that her parents were related to my mother, and that we were cousins. Pretty amazing if you ask me.  It's nice to find a relative out here in nandryx when I feel so alone in Shadow-tribe. It's always a pleasure to be around Zen, and I love her a lot.


Maika
( ) I hate her. She hates me for fighting her in the neutral lands because of the second great war's leaders' orders to attack any enemies on sight. I hate her for stealing my best friends (at the time, Sango and Damian) away from me to the rebellion. To this day I still don't understand how sch young cats like Damian and Sango could betray their tribe, the tribe that nursed them, for some girl.

Why is it that every time we meet, we fight? Me and Kena had been out exploring when we came across this Air-triber again, and her, being a stupid cat like usual, fell into the quicksand. Kena and I were just watching for a whil at first before deciding to help her, until we realized that we couldn't reach her without getting stuck ourselves. Thankfully some other cats came by and aided us in rescuing her with the use of a huge branch off a tree. All the while she was cursing Kena and I, but it was freaking hilarious. As if I would have really left her to sink. I'm no murderer.

( ) Immediately after Astrarius died, I went to the forest to resurrect him with my spirit-raising ability. The Orange-Air happened to wander by when I accidentally summoned Sango instead. What a coincidence, right? The two talked together while I held him on nandryx, and she thanked me afterwards. Although I was bitter, depressed, and crying because Sango wasn't Astrarius, I accepted her thanks and we parted. I received the upper paw, however; I got her name. Maika.

( - ) Why did I have to be there when she died? Emlyn wasn't even my apprentice. Why did I take him out? Hell if I know. But I did, and I witnessed Maika's death. Pathetically so, I got knocked out by the fox that attacked the three of us, and Maika was no match for a fox that size by herself while having to protect her son at the same time. True to her familial bond, she protected Emlyn as best she could, but when I awoke I found blood everywhere and her body cast away limp and shredded. Emlyn was nowhere to be found, but he's believed to be dead also. I wish I could've helped more. Maika was a brave cat to do this, and she earned my respect that day.  We were never friends, and I always wished I could've been the one to kill her (truly, though, I never would have), but I never wished to see her go. A great tragedy. Rest in peace, Maika.

Karsynn
( | ) (Daughter) I haven't seen Karsynn in a long, long time. I love her like crazy, but I just haven't the time. Between deputy duties, training Blaire and caring for Shadow-tribe amidst my depression there's no way I can walk across nandryx just to pay a friendly visit. I will one day, when I'm up to it. Love you, Karsynn.

Eva
( ) I do like her I suppose. I think she's fairly sweet and all, and it was awfully nice of her to let me win the race. I could totally tell she let me, even if I didn't say. I wish that we hadn't been on opposite sides of the war; this Orange-Fire would've been such a nice friend to have. I honestly hope in a fight she doesn't get hurt. I wouldn't like to hear of her passing.

EDIT 1; I think I can call her my friend now. I just don't know. She hid me in the war, and I deliberately disobeyed her by going back out to fight. But I can't help but appreciate what she did. Turning her back on the war for a minute to save me-- it means a lot.

( ) She... She died. Sullivan told me. Or I figured it out. Spirits, why... I haven't seen her in so long and I never got to say thank you for everything she did for me. Are you proud of me now, Orange-Fire? I'm not the little Pink-Shadow that I used to be...

( ) WIP.


Palette
( ) I met her briefly when Melibourne went missing for the first time. I trversed to Fire-tribe to look for Melibourne myself when she found me while I rested.  At first the meeting was tense, but she seemed like quite a family-cat, and she gradually relaxed, and so did I. We talked for some more time, and she helped me in searching for my daughter for the rest of the afternoon. It was awkward and full of quietness and small talk, but I appreciate her help.


Kintsu
( ) During the raid on Fire-tribe and we searched for Cenek's son Pisciz (then Primus), the Yellow-Fire and I met squarely in the center of camp. I let my patrols go on ahead and scope out his camp, and the two of us faced off. To be honest he overpowered me (unfairly, my pride believes) with a move I didn't know Fire-tribers could do: he suffocated me with toxic gas. On the verge of passing out, I thought he'd keep me prisoner in Fire-tribe whre I'd be shamed,  but Tule came to my rescue by knocking the Yellow-Fire out and deactivating his signature move, I'd presume. I can't blamethe Yellow-Fire for being pissed, because with this knowledge that I have now (Primus was at the gathering), I know that we wrongfully invaded Fire-tribe. He as every right to hate me and Shadow-tribe.


Castail
( ) I thank him for saving my life from falling that one day I got stuck in the tree. How embarrassing to have to have help from a Fire-Triber, but their Yellow-Fire, no less! Anyway, he's a pretty ok guy, but he needs to chill a little bit more.

EDIT 1; With the recent raid on Fire-tribe I wonder what he thinks of me now. Technically it's not my fault but the Yellow-Fire surely would have mentioned the Yellow-Shadow for leading it, and the Silver-Fire knows me as the Yellow-Shadow. *Grunts* That's upsetting, because we're pretty close as far as closeness goes.


Melibourne
( | ) AHH this is my baby Meli! I love her with all my heart; she's gonna be just like me I know it. I can see it in her beautiful eyes. Sadly she's been sent off to fire-tribe, but I know she'll be in the best of care with daddy!

EDIT 1; You disappeared after the caiman war, and I'm so glad you came back.  Your father and I were so worried, running around looking for you every night and day. When we heard you'd come back to Fire-tribe, we were so relieved. I love you, Meli. Please don't leave again.

( )EDIT 2; God... you ran away again... Meli... It's been a month, much longer than last time... where are you...


Jensen
( ) Haha, we met once in the forest when he had a porcupine quill (or like 5) stuck in his jaw and I had to get them out for it else they get infected. Good thing I was there huh? We bonded really fast after that, and he's definitely a friend.

( | ) Jensen... I think... I think I love him. I told him right in front of Cenek and Kena, right before he and Cenek started fighting like imbeciles. I still don't understand why Jensen would want to fight Cenek but whatever. I love him. I do. I'm finally daring to admit it. He's amazing, funny, and he takes care of me. I don't think anyone could be more for me. Thank you Jensen, I ... love you...

( | ) Jensen asked to be my mate, and I agreed. Not long after I was told by a Light-triber that we'll be expecting a litter together. I love him very much, and am so excited to raise a litter with him!! <3

EDIT 1; After the caiman war I walked him to Fire-tribe where we found Melibourne missing. I... I felt so awful for not wanting to speak to him for weeks. I couldn't. I was beyond worried for her and PISSED at him for not WATCHING HER. But later I realized he couldn't have watched her, because he was fighting the caimen... It was a spur of the moment thing. I feel so awful for yelling and storming away... I know it wasn't his fault at all, reflecting on it. But I still couldn't help being angry at him, because I had no one else to blame. He took it fine, and we made up very soon, but... I was just so angry.

EDIT 2; He recently moved to Shadow-tribe to be with me, claiming he couldn't stand being away from me and that he had nobody in Fire-tribe now that-- *chokes*-- Melibourne is gone again. There's no hope for her coming back this time, but I've asked the Silver-Fire, one of my friends in Fire-tribe, and the one motherly Orange-Fire to let me know in case she ever... goes back... But anyway, he's here and finally released from 'probaton' that Cenek ordered on him. I talk to him every day, and we've agreed that I can't raise any more children. He's okay with that, and I love him because of his sacrifices for me. He's always there for me and listens to me, and I love him unconditionally and know that I can always count on him to be there for me. Thank you Jensen, for always being there.

Aeiro
( ) Heehee, Kena and I scared the shit out of this guy in Nightwatch Forest! Literally. I felt horrible-- horribly embarrassed for him. When we'd gotten there I never thought he'd literally shit himself. God, that was the funniest moment of my life. Sorry, kid...  He probably hates me and Kena so much.


Kenieen
( | ) I'm not too fond of rogues at all since Cenek told me about the rogue that led to the Fire-tribe raid, but I met this one in the forest one day and we seemed to click rather quickly. WIP.